First Weekend By Myself w/ Baby

This was originally written on Monday, June 16, 2008:

I made it through my first weekend pretty much alone with Logan! I didn't realize my mom & stepdad were only stopping by for 8 hrs on Saturday, so I had all day & night on Friday as well as all night Saturday until 4 pm on Sunday by myself. I was definitely more tired than ever before once Joe came home from his class reunion (since I'd spent Friday cleaning the house and then ran errands all day Saturday), but fortunately Logan was on his best behavior those nights and so I managed not to get stressed out. Logan and I rented a couple of movies, ate junkfood, and had a slumber party, lol.

I have noticed how Logan is starting to care where I'm at. Until now I could just leave him anywhere (in his crib, swing, pack n play or car seat) and go do my things, but now if he's awake he wants to be able to see me. Sometimes my Baby Bjorn carrier works and other times he doesn't like the confinement. It's really sweet to see his face light up when I've been out of his sight and then pick him up, though.

For Father's Day, Logan got his daddy a card, pair of khaki shorts, chocolate pudding, pop tarts, and fruit roll-ups. :-) Then they spent some quality time together while I took a much-needed nap!!!

Good news--Joe & I gave something a second try and had success this time. It still hurt, but from talking to some of you it sounds like the average is six months before it's going to be comfortable for me--but at least I didn't feel like I was being torn, burned, and stabbed all at the same time! (Yes, that's the best way to describe it. Fortunately for Joe he said I feel the same to him.) [UPDATE: It took four months post partum for me, or two months of "you know what"--and then like a light switch in August everything felt perfectly normal again and there has been no pain or discomfort since. Whew!]

To close this blog, I thought I'd give you the link of a good article I read on CNN's website: "Is It Harder To Raise Boys or Girls?" On Saturday I was talking with my parents about how I'm so incredibly happy to have a son and am scared to have a girl (more pressure), but this article may relieve that since it sounds like boys are harder overall, haha!! Seriously, though, some days I think I want one of each so that I don't start looking enviously at little girls (since I'm confident we're stopping at two children no matter what). But then I'm sure Logan would prefer a brother and enjoy playing with him more, and actually I'm probably a better mom to a son than a daughter. However, then I'd be worried I'd compare my next boy to Logan which I don't want to do. We plan to start trying for our other child spring/summer 2010--ideally I'd prefer to get pregnant in July of that year so as to have another April baby that is exactly three years younger than Logan--but who knows what will end up happening! I guess I really don't care what baby #2 is. . .I'll just leave it up to God!